Wednesday, July 15, 2009

shirin tagged me.. =) hehe... so i'm doing this.. just for her sick lol

A. Anthony Wong
1)Do you love this person? Yes very much =) he's family
2)Is this person your enemy? No not at all
3)Is this person taller than you? Yupz..

B. Barbara Zang
1)What do you really think of this person? She's really nice and friendly
2)What's their favourite colour? erm, no idea.. pink?
3)Ever danced with them? Nope.. not yet

C. Calvin Taylor
1)Do you like this person? Yes of course.. His my friend
2)Where did you meet this person? At a club/bar during a friend's 21st =)
3)How old is he/she? The same age as me..

D. Danielita Yanez
1)How long have you known him/her? Few months ago
2)Biggest regret? Not at all.. she's a really good and nice friend I ever met =)

E. Elicia Marian Lee
1)Have you met his/her parents? Yes, all the time..
2)Worst thing about this person? hmmm.. can't think of any =)
3)Best thing about this person? Everything hehe =)

F. Faye Ho
1)Have you ever dated this person? umm.. lol noooo..
2)When is the next time you will see him/her? hopefully soon.. we haven't seen each other in ages..
3)Do you go to school with them? Yes I did during primary school.. those were the good old times =)

G. Ghavin Chiew
1)Is he/she a good listener? Yup he has been always there for me =) a really good friend
2)Have you ever lied to this person? Nopeeee.. not in a million years
3)Is this person nice? Yes of course..

H. Hui Mei
1)When was he/she born? 8 October 1987
2)Is he/she your best friend? Yupz of course.. one of the very best..
3)Ever done something illegal with this person? haha.. hmm illegal?? i can't really remember

I. Ivy Tan
1)What is this person's favourite food? hmmm.. i don't really know.. but i think she craves for sugar.. hehe
2)Where did you meet this person? through my cousin's friend in Melbourne University
3)Do you trust him/her? Yes of course.. all my life =)

J. Ju-Jinn Lee
1)Does he/she have any siblings? Yes he does.. a sister named Ju-Wen Lee
2)Do you know their favourite song? haha no idea.. i just know he really LOVES being spiderman =P
3)What will you do if he/she confessed that he/she likes you? haha.. must i answer this??

K. Kallistar Wong
1)How old were you when you guys first met? 17 years of age?? lol when we were in our final year of high school
2)How did you meet? In class which was in school =)
3)Ever danced with this person? Yes.. when we meet up =) hehe

L. Laura Simmonds
1)What will you do if you had never met this person? Elicia and Phoebe's group would never be complete =)
2)Do you like him/her? Of course!!
3)Would you go to Disneyland with this person? Why not? of course.. =)

M. Michelle Kirsten Wee
1)Is this person older than you? No of course not.. we're the same age.. =)
2)Is this person single? YES.. still haha =P
3)How many times do you talk to him/her in a week? ummm.. almost everynight =) hehe

N. Nial Bruce
1)Is this person your boyfriend/girlfriend? hmm.. i wonder.. lol =P
2)Have you seen this person cry? ummm.. not yet.. but i won't mind seeing him cry.. coz i'll always be there to comfort him..
3)Do you know this person's middle name? If he has one, i would definitely know..

O. --
1)Are you related?
2)Could you live with this person?
3)Do you believe this person is gay?

P. Petrina Kuan
1)Have you ever been to the mall with this person? Why.. of course =)
2)How about a sleepover with him/her? Nope haven't done that yet.. but i think i should.. it would be fun.. =)
3)Does this person have a job? i don't think so.. well not yet

Q. --
1)Does this person drink alcohol?
2)Have you seen this person dance?
3)Where does he/she work?

R. Renata Yanez
1)Have you heard this person sing? Nopeeee not yet but i would love toooo... hehe
2)Do you think this person will repost this? hmm.. i don't think so
3)What's one thing you'll change about this person? Nothing at all.. she's just perfect the way she is =)

S. Sumitra Naidu
1)Is this person taller than you? ummm.. nope i know i'm definitely taller than her a tiny bit =P
2)Do you enjoy spending time with him/her? Why yes of course..
3)Do they live close to you? Yup back home.. but not in Melbourne though.. coz she's all the way in Adelaide.. =(

T. Thomas Chow
1)Would you do anything for him/her? Yup anything if he asks =P
2)Have you been to his/her house? Nopeeee..
3)Is this person a deepshit? Nope

U. --
1)Is this person in a relationship?
2)Do you know where he/she lives?
3)What colour hair does this person have?

V. Vincent Chua
1)Do you see this person alot? haha.. last time I do not now though
2)When did you meet him/her? Let's see.. since primary school..
3)Is this person your friend? Why yes of course.. although he can be a pain in the butt.. but he's a great good old friend..

W. Wong Su Lian
1)Is this person quiet or loud? She will always be LOUD.. lol (miss you mei)
2)Name a friend that both of you are close too There are lots.. can't put all of them down here.. might forget some..
3)What colour eyes does this person have? Brown.. =)

X. Xiu Wen Chen
1)Why are you friends with him/her? She ain't a friend.. she's my COUSIN lol
2)Have you ever gone anyway with them? Why yes of course.. everywhere.. and everytime =)
3)What is one thing you will change about them? Nothing at all.. she's just perfect the way she is..

Y. Yen Wen Tan
1)Does this person wear make-up? Nopee.. well not yet.. i think?
2)Does this person play any instruments? Yes she does.. the piano (like me)
3)What is his/her favourite sport? Swimming, badminton.. she's a very sporty girl..

Z. Zu En Chen
1)Does this person have MSN/AIM? Not that i know of..
2)Ever gone shopping with him/her? Yes.. whenever we can..
3)Does this person have any special abilities? Everything of her is special =)

3:33 AM

Sunday, July 12, 2009

i thought i could but i guess i wasn't strong enough to just do it yet..

12 July 2009
i thought of googling my sister's name to see all her friend's blogs but i guess i wasn't ready.. well not just yet.. i thought i was though. i thought i would not tear again. coz just talking about her to my friends didn't make me tear but make me smile.. coz i was very happy and lucky knowing that in my this life, God had given me one lovable, great, younger sister.. but i never thought she would leave first.. never once have i thought.. i thought that she would be always beside me annoying me, making me angry lol.. OH...!!! the things she does just to annoy me.. yeah i do actually miss all of that.. very much indeed..

but i did tear.. it just came rolling down my eyes to my cheeks.. it couldn't stop.. even writing this makes the tears become streams. i guess i'm still not ready to accept that she's gone.. and i don't even know whether i would ever.. a part of me is missing. a really big part.. there's this hole in my heart that would never ever mend itself.. no surgery can mend it too.. if that hole really do exist in my heart.

2.08am, 15 September 2008
i would never forget this time.. date.. month.. and year. never ever would i..
to tell you the truth mei.. when Ku Jie took me into your room the night before, i didn't want to let you go.. it wasn't the right time.. and not so soon..
i didn't want to say the words "mei, don't worry about me i'm not sick anymore.. you can go now.. where you won't feel anymore pain.. you can let everything all go now.. be brave.. follow the light.."
i mean i couldn't even tear.. i was afraid you would see and would wonder why.. i didn't want to confuse you.. i wanted you to be in a better place i guess in my heart i didn't want you to be in anymore pain.. i didn't want you to suffer anymore.. you have suffered enough.. and i cannot be so selfish..
i knew i had to let you go.. although how much i didn't want to.. how much i didn't want to..

so don't worry about me.. i'm fine.. i will be.. i love you, Mei.. and will always do!

love jie..

12:30 AM

Saturday, June 13, 2009

my luv for POPPY LOVE FASHION !!!!!

i just love the clothes in Poppy Love! ahhhh wanna buy the clothes... urgh..! but i do not have money :( why ? *cries* I WANNA BUY I WANNA BUY I WANNA BUY !!!!!!!!!! grrrr....

if you girls wanna look at the clothes, the link to their blog is just under the link section on the left hand side of my blog.... do take a look at their selection of gorgeous clothes. :) if there's anyone who can help me to get some too pls do. hehe :P thanks in advance ;)

phoebz <3

5:11 AM

Saturday, May 30, 2009

quick & fast

getting to know you was really fast. we moved too fast. but i never ever thought we were. was i blinded by love? blinded by you? when you are close? when you put your hands around me? your head on mine? and swaying to the music? why didn't i stop myself? why didn't i stop you? to continue this outrageous thing? it's not like me. i do not understand. i can't. i don't know what i'm trying to understand more. myself or you? it's just so complicated. so this is what you called a complicated relationship? i'm not myself around you. that's all i know. when i'm with you i'm someone else and not me. this is so weird. this has never happened to me before. haven't happened to any particular guy before. except you.

what do you have that makes me in this way? i do the things that i'm not suppose to do when i'm with you. its like i trust you. giving my all to you. i've never done what i've done. not even once.

i don't know how i see myself now. the most important thing is i don't know how all my friends see me now. what would they think of me? i've changed and changed coz of you. and its unlikely of me. am i dangerous now? maybe i should not mix with anyone now. maybe i should just hide myself. hide away from you and not wanting to see you. when i'm with you i'm out of control and when i'm not with you i'm myself again. trying to understand why exactly did i do the thing i did when i was with you. i'm like a demon when i'm with you. but i don't know why i want to be that demon. wanting to spend more time with you. wanting that "casual relationship" to be more of a relationship than just "casual" but why can't you see? you say you don't like long distance relationship. me too. i don't. but do u want to stop what we're having between us. i know there was another person in my mind when i'm with you. but she's my close friend. one of my best friends. i don't want to hurt her feelings. she knew you first. she has feelings for you first. being in this situation isn't easy for me. but the feeling is inside. liking you but telling you. am i doing it the right way? so that the 3 of us won't get hurt? what am i suppose to do? should i confront you? or keep all this inside of me? and just tell no one. no one at all.....

phoebz <3>

9:46 PM

i ♥ pink and white Calla Lilly Flowers....

just ♥ and adore them...
:)

phoebz <3

9:55 AM

problems are just part of LIFE... !
more like MY life :(

when you meet that special someone you think you have found everything. that was how i felt just last week. thought i've found that special someone. knowing that he can keep me warm at night when it's cold, knowing that he would be beside me when i wake up in the morning saying "Good Morning" all but made my day.... :)

but i guess this isn't a fairytale like my friend said. this is reality and therefore we are faced with many problems. some problems which can be solved, while some just can't be.

however, how would i know that i've solved my problem when i still feel so down, so not in the mood for almost everything. knowing that i will always be thinking about what he's thinking in his mind of his. not wanting him to think and hurt so much just because seeing him hurt would just hurt myself even more.

in other times i also do not want to see my closest friend here hurt too just coz i'm happy. that's just not right. not right at all. but what happens when 2 girls like the one same guy...hmmmm 2 guys, a girl and a pizza place.... (miss that series...haha)

i don't know where to go from here. and there are also the stalkers. my personal stalkers. these people are scary... VERY SCARY !!!! @.@
i told you people that i'm not a model. NOT A MODEL...
i might do it sometimes but i'm not one. i just do it to help a friend or just for the fun of it. but i'm no model. i don't get paid.... geez you people can stop stalking me already.
i've enough problems up my sleeve i just don't think all these would help me in any way. so you guys should PLEASE STOP... before i actually report this to the police.

i've got to continue hitting on my books.. HATE FINALS....! gah.

phoebz <3

9:11 AM

MICHELLE !!!! thank you thank you :)

omg!!!! thank you thank you MICHELLE... :)
so happpy that my blogskin is up HAHA and its all thanks to my dear friend, MICHELLE hehe.

i would be updating this blog from time to time when i'm feeling down or even when i'm feeling happy. you guys are welcome to read it :)
hehe.....

just have to share with everyone... i luv BOA's US album! its the best.... LOVE IT :)
hope she'll sing more english songs.... just luv her. she dances very well toooooo.....
you guys should take the time to hear it... the best... !

phoebz <3

7:20 AM

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